Tuesday 13th February

If you remember what I said before you will understand what I will say now, sometimes you need to go to the dentist after having a meal. This coming Thursday I will have my first of half an hour successions of telephone counselling; this is because I need to find out why the carers last for a certain period of time only. Of course it may be a question of their not being carers but just people after work and when they realise that when doing care job is more than just getting a job they quit, and in order not to feel bad about themselves they blame everything on me but then maybe I need to look into my sycological makeup in order to see if there is something within me that has not been adjusting itself yet to the new conditions of being body disabled, by this I mean that when somebody who is body able is not happy with how things have been done by others. they can get upset but at the end they can get their thing in their own way, but in my case when I am hoping to have something done in the way that I should do it, I can only get upset because my physical dependency is so much that I cannot do it any other way, and I have to rely on people doing things for me whether I like it or not, the way they have been performed. So, because of this, I need to have a deep and thorough look at my character/personality in order to find out if there is something that can be adapted to my new physical circumstances, if you know what I mean.

I believe, still, that counselling or phsycotherapy should be intergrated in the life of every person as part of their 'normal' way of living, but until that happens we need to be separated and people like me will be continuing being sceptic about it; however within my scepticism, sometimes and only sometimes I need more than what I just can get from my different friendships in order to explore in total honesty, my 'makeup'.

Sunday the 11th of February

Finally I can publish the photos of my kithchen. I here you can see a quite cheep washing mashine (something to do with the housing trust), an indepentent dryer, a macrowave, a regular oven that I onlyuse for the clock- alarm, a kettle, a fridge - freeze, a blender, a steemer, and so on very avarage kitchen as you can see: but in here is what I can call the "heart" of my rehabilitation that is why I keep it so clean.

Becouse I have mada a few decioration changes in the living room and becouse I have an infestation in the plants in my spare room I might neef to publish photos again. However now, today I publish only the kitchen in two photograps.

Sunday 11th of February

Thursday 8th February

Since I am going to reduce to nearly zero the food supplementation and as I have reduced to quite a minimum standard the physical exercises that I have, my diet is quite balanced and I think quite good. Below I put the whole week menu that I have but in time everything will change. As you can see I have quite a strict and regimented diet. This is a left over from being in a hospital regimen and then a hospice one for the first eight months of my 'new' life as a disabled person. At the moment I am debating with myself whether I will stay like that or I will try to improvise more everything that I do; in the more inprovised life-style stands the site of freedom as I got the possibility however in the sight of a strict and regimented life stands recovery as I understand it so far. Besides, as I cannot do anything I need to depend in everything for other people to do it and I find that the people who look after me work better if they have something to follow rather than just asking me what I would like to have; do you know what I mean?

BREAKFAST
BREAKFAST
Monday to Friday is porridge that it will be 15 grams of millet porridge and 15 grams of scottish porridge oats and the grounding of 4 brazil nuts and 1 teaspoon of the following pumpkin, sunflower,leen and hemp seeds all of this again grounded well and mixed with the porridge and 1 teaspoon of blueberries. All of this is mixed with rice milk and put in the microwave for 1and a half mins, when it comes out you stir it well and add more rice milk if necessary.
On Saturday and Sunday (but on Sundays is slightly different because with the breakfast is a flapjack and on Sun days also is the breakfast all at the same time because on Sat like it is the rest of the week, first is the juice and a bit later the second half of the breakfast), breakfast consists kefir with the grounding of 4 brazil nuts and 1 teaspoon of sunflower,pumpkin,lin and hemp seeds, add 1 tablespoon of Xylitol together with half a liter of kefir; after grounding well the nuts and seeds you blend well with a kefir and you give it to Elfrid in 2 tall glasses for him to have it with a straw.
This is put on the table for Elfrid to have breakfast together with the appropriate medication and one cup of breakfast juice(grapefruit and 2 different kind of orange juice but all is made already) with 1 and 1/2 teaspoons of chlorella powder. Also with this drink you need to put a full cup of plain water when needed(only mon-fri).Flapjack cut in 5 only on friday morning and Sunday breakfast.

LUNCH
Monday –An omelette(of 2 eggs) with 40g of cheese, 2 chopped cloves of garlic, 1 teaspoon of oregano and chorizo(spanish sausage,aprox.65gr). The oil in the frying pan needs to be grapeseed oil(only 1 tblspoon).
Tuesday – 60g of Buckwheat pasta with 3 or 4 tomatoes (according to size) stir fried in the wok, when ready, you blend it with a clove of garlic. Add 1 teaspoon of Xylitol(add salt if necessary)
Wednesday –50 grms of boiled basmati brown rice blended with the stir fried of 100g of broccolli, 1 regular size carrot(100g aprox.), 1 chopped clove of garlic and 1 chopped, peeled and seedless apple in a sweet and sour sauce that is made from 1 tblspoon of vinegar and 1 tblspoon of Xylitol, add 1 teaspoon of parsley; in the blender you need to put the rice and the stir fry, another chopped clove of garlic and ¼ of a jar of olives.You blend it well and served.
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Thursday – 60g of Buckwheat pasta with 3 or 4 tomatoes (according to size) stir fried in the wok, when ready, you blend it with a clove of garlic, add 1 teaspoon of Xylitol(add salt if neccesary).


Friday – 60 grams of Quinoa, that has been washed, boiled and blended together with a marinated but drained artichokes, 1 teaspoon of chives, the juice of a lemon, 25 mustard seeds, 1 teaspoon of the following thyme, rosemary and oregano, 1 clove of garlic and a pinch of tumeric.
(BEFORE LEAVING FOR SHOPPING LEAVE A FLAPJACK ON THE TABLE)
Saturday – 2 steaks of frozen cod ( that needs to be defrosted in the microwave for 8 min.) together with the sauce of 2-3 tomatoes(according to size) that has been stir fried in the wok with grapeseed oil and then blended together with 50g of beetroot. To this blending of the tomato-beetroot sauce you add the defrosted cod steaks (approx. 200 grams) together with 2 cloves of garlic, 1 teaspoon of chives. When all is blended adjust salt if necessary..Add 1 teaspoon of Xylitol and adjust salt if necessary.
Sunday – Half of butternut squash that needs to be steamed for 10 minutes and while this is happening you can make the lime drink(see note for references how to make it), this is blended together with 1/2 jar of anchovies plus the 1 whole pot of goats milk yoghurt(125gr) and 1 teaspoon of chives, add 1 or 2 cloves of garlic depending on strength of the garlic.


Note - Everyday for lunch Elfrid has cup of fruit juice(this is already prepared and consists of a blend of tropical fruits) to which has been added 1 and a 1/2 teaspoons of chlorella powder. After lunch the PA needs to leave on the table a cup tranquility tea with 1 level teaspoon of Xylitol Monday to Saturday because on Sundays the PA needs to leave on the table a cup of cranberry juice.


SUPPER/DINNER
Monday – 60 grams of Quinoa, that has been washed, boiled and blended together with a whole pack of Spanish ham (jamon Serrano), the juice of a lemon, 25 mustard seeds, 1 teaspoon of the following oregano and parsley..All of this is blended and served.
Tuesday– You need to put in the blender 1 whole pot of goats milk yoghurt(125gr),a whole packet of boquerones(drained and put into the water for 20 min. before blending) also 90 grams of boiled potatoes together with a pinch of following ginger and turmeric and half of an avocado, white steamed egg, 1 clove of garlic, 30 seeds of mustard, all in the blender with one teaspoon of the following rosemary, oregano, thyme and parsley.Add 1 tblspoon grapeseed oil.Blended all together adjust the salt if necessary.





Wednesday – 1 boiled Aubergine, 150g of beetroot, 1 clove of garlic. Blend it well.
Thursday – You need to put in the blender 40gr of cheese plus the grounding of 1 tablespoon of hempseeds, a pinch of turmeric, half an avocado also 130 grams of boiled potatoes,the white of 1 boiled egg, 2 cloves of garlic, 30 seeds of mustard, ¼ of a jar of olives, 1 tablespoon of grapeseed oil and 1 teaspoon of cider vinegar all in the blender with 1 teaspoon of the following rosemary, oregano, thyme and mint. Blended all together.
Friday – 225grms of spinach, 50 grams of boiled potatoes, a boiled egg , 50g of beetroot, 1 teaspoon of the following rosemary, oregano, thyme, 1 teaspoon of cider vinegar and 1 clove of garlic, all of this is blended together with 30 mustard seeds.
Saturday - You add in the blender 50grms of boiled basmati brown rice together with two cloves of garlic, one hundred and twenty five grams of natural mussels(if frozen defrost for 3 mins), one teaspoon of the following: oregano, thyme, rosemary and chives, the white of two boiled eggs and two pinches of tumeric and of ginger and you add one tablespoon of grapeseed oil and the juice of 1 lemon. Blend well and serve adjusting to salt if necessary.
Sunday – Vegetable Salad that needs to be prepared in the afternoon when the butternut squash is steamed (so it will have time to cool down, this is a salad and if its hot it isnt a salad), this consists of 1 steamed egg, 150g of steamed broccolli, 50g of steamed potatoes, 100 grams of steamed carrots that have to be washed and all of this need to be steamed around 15 mins and together with this you put ¼ of a jar of olives plus 1 tablespoon of grapeseed oil, 1 tablespoon of cider vinegar , the juice of a whole lemon, and a pinch of turmeric when going to blend. All of this is blended together.


NOTE: for supper Elfrid has usually one cup of soup to which 1 and a 1/2 teaspoon of chlorella is added. The soup is freshly made every Monday and Thursday from 1150 ml of water approx., 1 tablespoon of extra virgin olive oil,120 gr(approx) of potatoes, 1 red onion, 3 tblspoons of sea weed, 1 tblspoon (each) of the following seeds sunflower,pumpkin,hemp and linseeds when blended add also 6 cloves of garlic and spices: one pinch of each turmeric and ginger (please use Coconut oil while last). This soup that will do Monday to Saturday is one of the drinks for dinner, the other drink consists of a cup of lemon/lime drink that is made as follows: put in the blender 250ml of drinking ,cold water,1 whole lime(never peelled, and cut in 8) and 1 tblspoon full of extra virgin olive oil,blend well for 3 minutes at least(if neccesary longer) and then blend all of this and pour into a special cup(one of those that have 2 handles), after seefing it. (On Sundays that there is no soup, the drinks for dinner will consist of one cup cranberry juice to which 1 and a 1/2 teaspoon of chlorella powder has been added, mix vigorously; and one cup of lime drink).

I have sent this letter document to my doctor in the Chelsea and Westminster Hospital because from the 1st of March I will be taking full combination therapy and I want him to be able of everything I take at the moment, although when I finish everything that I have in storage I will not buy any more.
I have also reduced the exercises that I do to have only the ones that make my speech to improve, my legs strong enough and flexibility, so all the other exercises like the ones I have with the weights I do not do them anymore. The weights I gave them in donation to THT, through the London lighthouse, and from nearly four hours of exercises I have a day now I have about 45 minutes. So because of this, my intake of food has been reduced also considerably, so I am not eating a lot because I do not consume many calories anymore, but I think I have still a very balanced diet.
All of these changes are because the system that we have helps, it seems, only to those who look bad; those who like me who may be looking well but are still as fat as before they pay the price of looking well. It might be dangerous what I do but somehow I think that the many years that I have been looking after my body so well are going to carry me throught now, and when I even try to commit suicide, that my own body was healing itself very quickly, hopefully now, will happen something similar.
I will still keep writing, no problem about that.

MORNING
Male Multiple(calcium,magnesium,vit c, e,b12, choline,inositol,thiamin,riboflavin,zinc,selenium, copper,manganese,boron,chromium) 1
Vinpocentine(Perwinkle)(cellulose,vegetarian capsule,magnesium,anti-caking agent,silicon dioxcide,vinpocentine) 1
Olive Leaf(olive leaf extract) 1
Atazanavir 2
Ritonavir 1
AFTERNOON
Neem Leaf (each capsule contains 450mg Neem Leaf Powder in gelatine capsule) 2
Turmeric(tumeric extract, gelatin capsule shell, cellulose, stearic acid, magnesium, stearate) 1
Fish Oil( fish oil) 2
Male Multiple 1
Gotu Kola(raw gotu cola, gotu cola leaf powdered extract) 1

EVENING
Vinpocentine(Perwinkle) 1
Fish Oil 3
Neem Leaf 2
Olive Leaf 1
Gotu Kola 1
Turmeric 1
With the food in the supper, Elfrid has soup Monday to Saturday, and Sundays he has cranberry juice, whether it is in the soup or in the cranberry juice, you need to put one and a half teaspoons of chlorella powder, (protein,vits a, cthiamin,riboflavin,niacin, vit B6,B12,magnesium,iron potassium,chlorophyll,mixed cartotenoids, chlorella growth factor. The same powder and the same quantity I have it also in the morning and afternoon meals, still in two cups of juices, breakfast juice for the morning, and tropical juice for the afternoon.) Remember to mix and stir well.
BEDTIME
Melatonin 1
On Mondays and Thursdays, remember to change the water in the bedside table, so Elfrid can have fresh water in the mornings to take 1 tablet of ‘Saccharo Boulardi’. Also Monday to Sunday, I have for supper and to help me to have the melatonin when I go to bed a LIME DRINK. I.E. a tablespoon of extra virgin olive oil, 250ml of water and one lime cut in eight, all in the blender for three minutes and then it is passed through the seef and I have it for supper and whatever is left when I go to bed.
I am sending you this list so you can decide what combination therapy I might have according with the supplementation I take at the moment. As I told you, when I finish them, I finish, it will be left only the melatonin and the lime drink. All the other food supplements including the chlorella powder are going to disappear when I finish them, I will not buy any more.
I hope this is helping you in the decision.

Saturday the third of February

Today I cannot write much becouse the typing skils of my assitant are no existant but I can tell you that the dream of mooving to the Tenerfe ilend is out of my mind for the time being: but the economic ideas that came up as a consequance of it stay with me and will bring somethig up for shure.

Friday 2nd February
The system has decided that if you look healthy, although you might still have the same disabilities as before, the system is not supporting me any longer, so since the Spanish parliament has approved a new law called the DEPENDENCY LAW, in one year and a half from now, I will be moving back to Spain. after all it is my own country and I hope not to be so isolated there as I am here. Thanks to this new law will be able of having a room where to stay and the visit menu from breakfast, lunch and supper, plus many of my friends helping me; in my whole live I have not had much luck with lovers but friends i had quite a few and I still have quite a lot, mainly in Spain and the place I have decided to go, although it is not my birth place is one that most of my friends are now, and that is tenerife Island.

I will not only have the help from the government but my best friend is supposed to help me with the accomodation and I think that he will be the main carer. On top of this, I have the help of the local and national aids organisations plus the national organisation for the blind that in Spain is called ONCE. So, I do not think that I will be left and forgotten in any sense. Of course will not be but apparently when you are so disabled in this country you do not get much help like me if your body looks well and your flat looks good. When people see me they think automatically money, and of course it is nothing like that. It is all about knowledge and style.