Sunday 12 October

If anyone thought I was gone after this long silence -was wrong. Still here although a bit sorry for myself because I realised I need to struggle much more than I am struggling now in order to get to the special place where I want to be; and you know something, very secretive of course, that special place does not exist and if anyone as crazy as me manages to get there is completely and utterly gone. So what I am doing walking this path I wonder, but I keep walking on it.
Well thank Heavens that this blog is called wholycrapofElfrid because what an amount of crap I am saying now.